Two Weeks then New Horizons

Two weeks.
In two weeks, I will be leaving two states away from where I've lived my whole life.
In two weeks, I will say good-bye to all those I know best and make a new "family" of friends.
In two weeks, I will hug those I love, the last time for three months.
In two weeks, I will leave the life I've known behind forever. I will be changed, I know it.
I will leave complacency, comfort, for challenges and the rewards that come with them.
I will leave relationships and church family for new ones that I'm sure will stay with me forever.

Two weeks will fly by. I am ready yet unprepared, contradicting though that may seem. I'm ready because God has called me to do this, and to always be prepared to go when he says. I am not prepared because I have my own list of things to do such as buying early Christmas gifts, spending time with friends not seen enough, and cleaning out my room, all of which should be done but I can survive if it doesn't.

The last few weeks, our pastor has been speaking on "Greater Things", challenging us to go out of our comfort zones, a fitting message for where I am in life. Today, we sang "Glory to God Forever" by Fee which says: "Take my life and let it be, all for you and for your glory, Take my life and let it be Yours"   http://youtu.be/h64opCwLZCw

And "So I stand, with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe, of the One who gave it all. I stand, my soul Lord, to you surrendered, All I am, is Yours"
 And those lyrics echo the cry of my heart. All I am is His.
That's why I am not sad to leave. I will miss this, I will miss the people, but how can I be sad when He has called me? How can I be sad when true sadness and heartbreak is calling from the hearts of the broken and needy, those who I am going to learn how to minister to? Why should I let fear and comfort control me (again from the spot-on sermon at church today) when, by leaving, I can help deliver the message of hope this world needs so desperately?

So I wonder about these two weeks, as I desperately try to cover all that needs done before I leave (which in the eternal realm of things, doesn't matter anyway. Other than spending time with people. Relationships last to eternity, I believe). I wonder how they'll ever pass, how this dream of YWAM will become a reality, and I wonder because days just pass so darn fast. I can't imagine what God has in store for me. I'm not even going to try, for I may accidentally put him in a box and try to limit what He has for me.
  I am excited, nervous, hopeful, thankful, and in awe of this opportunity before me. I will try not to be sad ever. Though missing people is allowed. I will miss the babies that I consider family, the babies that are now three and two (two years tomorrow) that I had the privilege of being more-than-babysitter to for their whole lives. I will miss the New Hope church family that I've so recently come to know but love so much already. I will miss the friends of my previous church, who are just as much part of my church family today though our churches are different. (So thankful to those mentors who knew me since I was a baby, who pray for me, and encourage me on occasions, like today, of God's plan for me.) I will miss the friends my age, those who I've known forever and those who I've recently met. I will miss the family that, of course, knows me better than anyone else, and who I haven't been apart from more than two weeks in my life.
  But I won't miss Jesus because, of course, he's the Best Friend that I can take anywhere :) Now isn't that nice!
New things, new faces, new ministries, new chances for God to work.
These are dreams coming true, in two weeks.